The second I save up enough money, I’m leaving this town and never coming back. I hate every last one of you fucking people. And your “two-timing, stab you in the back, talk behind your back and use you because I know I can” BULLSHIT!! GOD I LITERALLY AM SO HATEFUL BECAUSE OF EVERY LAST PERSON I KNOW!!!
Like literally I cant stand anybody. I am constantly hurt and neglected unless its good for someone else then I’m your best friend til you’re done with me, then you want me to crawl back in the hole I came from.
I cant do this anymore. I’m so torn… and its literally all of my “friends” and “family” and co workers. Like…. I’m nothing. I’m worthless. I am no good.
I’ll take my son and pack up our shit and move one day randomly. Fuck you all. You’ll never see or hear from me ever fucking again.
I DESERVE BETTER! MY SON DESERVES BETTER!!!!!
I’VE HAD A PRETTY SHITTY LIFE AND IM DONE WITH IT.
I will not let the same thing happen to my baby. He will have a GREAT life. He will get EVERYTHING he wants and deserves. You wanna know why?!?!?!
He didn’t ask to be here. It was out of some miracle and magic that he was conceived and born. And I will forever be thankful for him.
As for the rest of you. Please just go away. I truly hate you all. Thanks.
"oh, please. you can’t REALLY be in a great mood. there are people out there who just got raises. people just got married. people are being reunited with their families right now. how dare you say you’re happy."
The equivalent of someone saying you can’t be sad because other people have it worse than you.
Why are we so afraid of being judged we cant be ourselves? I mean, seriously think about this.
I had a conversation the other day on how I almost feel the need to be with more than one person at a time. But of course they got pissed off at me and made a huge deal out of it. Like… I was just sharing how I feel at the current moment. But in that moment after I then immediately regretted sharing that. And why because they started judging me and seeing me in a different light… a hateful light. I mean, how does it concern you at all? Why do you care? Its not effecting you in any way, shape or form. So why are you flipping out on me??
That’s equivalent to saying I’m bisexual.
Or I prefer sex with a woman but I am still attracted to men, or vice versa.
Or even at this point in time I’m still afraid to get my tongue pierced and being judged for it. Like how the FUCK does it effect you if MY tongue is PIERCED?!
First of all it would be hidden.
Second of all, it heals faster than your ear and closes faster as well.
Thirdly, I’ve been wanting this piercing since I was like 11 and still haven’t because of judgement from people I love and care about.
That’s terrible, completely and utterly terrible.
I fucking want this piercing so bad… but just cant get it…. because I’m so afraid of what other people will think of me after.
That I’m trashy or a slut or asking for attention or just a freak. :/
Sigh… the whole point of this is about being judged and cant be your true self because of judgment.
So why are we so afraid? Who instilled this fear in us? And why has it stayed?
Thoughts? Opinions? Advice?
Please respond, it’d be much appreciated.
I feel so fucking low right now. Like my depression just whacked me with a sledge hammer. It hit me that hard and quick and unexpected.
Why cant I be with one person?
Why cant I not talk to anyone else?
Why cant I be honest?
Why do I feel so low of myself?
Why does it always feel like I’m nothing, a nobody?
Why am I always treated as a piece of meat and when you’re done im thrown in the trash?
I literally need these questions answered. And probably more too.
Where I cant sleep and all I want to do is drive around aimlessly and clear my head. But my tank being on empty doesn’t help that at all. Why are my thoughts always cluttered at the moat inconvenient times. And why is there always a thought about you in my head? Like get out, geez. I dont want to think about you at all. That’s a dangerous path to be on. We both know this.
Gahh. If I cant drive, I need a smoke or a drink. Seriously though. -____-
For Halloween right now. For plenty of reasons but one that cant get off my mind. Is the possibility of seeing you and things happening. Last time I saw I fucked everything up. And now I feel like thats going to happen again. I cant help how attracted I am to yo5u. But it doesnt help feeling like you are too when nothing will probably ever happen. And there is this little part deep down inside of me that needs to know what it’s like with you. I feel like if I don’t ill always regret not knowing.
But am nervous at the same time that what if it changes everything. It changes you, it changes me. It changes our friendship and feelings toward each other. Good or bad. And honestly I dont really want anything to change. But I got to know. Ugh why must curiosity get the best of me.
I mainly view porn as an extension to your fantasies, a way to visually see what you are thinking, without having to concentrate too hard. In some ways it has become a part of puberty, that you never really grow out of. It is always going to be there, it helps discover what…
There is no way you are THIS sweet and cute and kind and funny and caring. I cant take it. I want to kiss you and not stop. And its even more adorable you didnt know what a kiss emotion was. As much as I dont really believe it. But my goodness. I cant believe I, I am talking to like the perfect guy. Fbjsjdjjdjdjdjjd
I could not be happier right now, unless you were cuddling with me. Then I would be ecstatic.
But I cant wait to see your face when I see you. And my hair is done, nails done, make up done, COMPLETELY shaved ;) and attempting to look sexy for you.
Ndidjuehdidhdskdh can it be 7 pm already?!??! Ahhhhhh!!!
UPDATE: he’s an asshole. I retract my previous statement.
Im at comerica park taking pictures of fans. Which is my job. And today was a big game because its like the divisional games. Anyways, so I’m suppose to approach people and ask their permission if I can take their picture and put it on the official Tigers website. While doing so, I encounter two men in their mid 50s I would say. And as usual I say..
“Hi there, how are you today?”
They sort of just stare and say hi, as they were drinking and quite obviously a little intoxicated.
“Would you mind if I take a picture of you and your buddy for the Official Tigers Website?”
They then go on to say that they are playing hookey from work and cant have their boss find out.
“Well you know, I’m going to give you this card with a direct link to your picture and only YOU can see it because it has a special code to enter once you get to the website, so no one will be able to see your picture unless they had this SPECIFIC code.”
Well he then decided to give me a dirty look and say..
“No, its not happening. Thats so fucking gay. And I am not going to do any gay shit or look gay.”
I literally stared at him for a minute, speechless. I had a million fucking things I wanted to scream at him. But I stopped myself and calmly said
“Sir, you do know what you just said is offensive and considered hate speech, correct? You really shouldn’t say such things.”
Which he replied with,
“I dont give a fuck, its GAY. Its fucking GAY.”
At this point I was so furious and not one to keep my cool at a point like this nor keep from getting violent. So I said,
“Well.. thank you… anyways”
And before I could even finish my sentence, he rudely interrupted me.
“Yeah, your welcome, alright”
At this point, im about to swing my camera against his ignorant asswipe of a face…. but as I’m working I regretfully cant. So I just stared at him until I felt it was long and awkward enough, turned slowly and walked away.
I have never been so appalled while interacting with someone before. Even when I got called a dumb bitch AT WORK. This was worse. This was personal.
How is it that it is 2013, we have a Black president, GAY marriage has been LEGALIZED in many states, Marijuana is getting legalized, Woman earned their rights YEARS AGO. And yet…
Woman are still fighting for the rights to their own bodies!
Their is still constant racism and racist speech being said and even race wars. Its just the color of your skin. Shit, you could dye yourself purple if you wanted to nowadays, so why is skin color such an issue?
Since when did being Gay become a bad thing or a crime? How does it personally affect you?! Please inform me!! If you dont agree then DONT STARE at them AND DONT MARRY a gay person.
And once again as such an old used topic still being argued over nothing.. Marijuana is safer then cigarettes, alcohol and prescription drugs.
Why is it no matter what, we as people of a FREE country are trying to take away OUR rights that have been fought for, killed for, and taken away so many lives for.
I cant stand the ignorance of people. EDUCATE YOURSELVES! AND HELL while you are at it, STOP worrying about other people or what someone else thinks or believes! ITS NOT YOU, THEY ARE NOT INVADING YOUR PERSONAL THOUGHTS OR EFFECTING YOUR LIFE IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM. So fuck off!
What is it to you that I’m a woman and love another woman.
What is it to you if I am white but am in love with a black man.
What is it to you if I smoke weed, to not be in physical pain.
What is it to you if I was raped or cant carry a child and have an abortion.
What is it to you if I carry a gun in my car or purse because I dont feel safe when I am alone and want to be able to protect myself.
Its nothing. Thats what it is. My personal beliefs and choices do not affect YOU in any possible WAY, SHAPE OR FORM. So stop trying to take away MY RIGHTS just because IT BOTHERS YOU!
The best example I have of this to people STILL reading and not understanding is..
"I went to subway today to get my FAVORITE sub. And the guy before me gets a different sub from the kind I like. This pissed me off so much, how dare you not get the same sub.
This didnt affect me at all, I still got my sub the way I like it. But I fucking hate you guy I dont know and will probably never see again, for getting a different sub!”
Do you see how stupid that sounds?
That is exactly what people sound like to me when they say gay marriage is bad. An abortion shouldnt be allowed. A white woman and black man cant be in love. A person can’t smoke weed in the privacy of their home. A person cant carry a gun because they dont feel safe.
So please AMERICA can we stop saying and doing such idiotic things and just mind our own business. We would ALL be much happier and in a non hateful place that way.
Temperamental… is what I’m looking for? You tell me to come over so I do but you’re a jerk like the entire time. And I bet is mainly because you were pretty drunk. And then I ask if you want me to leave. But you say no?
Im fucking confused.
If you’re trying to get with someone, why are you being a jerk??
Like bro, if you want her, like really want her, TREAT HER LIKE IT ALL THE TIME. It doesnt help you any to do it once or once in awhile. If you stop showing her, she’ll stop caring and coming around.
Why am I always getting hurt?
Seriously. Why cant I just have a dick and be one too. Real talk.
I MAY NOT BE THAT PRETTY OR ATTRACTIVE OR SKINNY BUT I HAVE A REALLY BIG HEART AND I CAN LOVE YOU AND TREAT YOU THE WAY YOU DESERVE. I KNOW IM QUITE AWKWARD AND SAD BUT YOU’RE SO PERFECT AND WE COULD WORK.
I’m dead serious. I’m not fishing for anyone’s compliments. That’s just how I really feel about myself. I think I’m “okay” looking though. But overall, I think I’m unattractive. There’s much more prettier and beautiful girls out there, that there’s too much that I can’t even count. Everything they do is better and cuter than what I do, even when they make silly faces or act stupid. I wish I was more attractive. I honestly wish I was one of those girls.