→ Fading Smiles: Broken Promises

livingfreeandinfinitely:

I slashed my skin angrily
It was the very first time
I tried not to scream in agony
Instead I turned my pain into a rhyme
Tears poured out of my wyes
I hated myself for all I’ve done
All I wanted was to die
If only I had a gun
That night I cried out my feelings
But my pain only grew
All…

→ all alone, a lone star: You love me-You held me like a simple dream;And then you’d feel me...

theweakestsoul:

You love me-
You held me like a simple dream;
And then you’d feel me slowly fading
until you see the worst in me.

Sometimes, I love you too, and then I’d drown
Into the vast sea of uncertainty;
And I’d find ways to hate you just a little more
Little sparks enough for my soul to burn.

…

saygoodbyeandgo:

there is nothing that scares me more than loving someone so much and having them wake up one morning and realise that they can do so much better so they don’t want you anymore

Dear ASSHOLE,

I honestly dont even know why I care about you still, when you dont give two flying fucks about me. Its literally a fucking game to you, to get my hopes up, admit my feelings, you turn me down, and then see how hurt i am. Does that get you off or something? Like wtf is so wrong with me. Why am I the one that gets hurt every fucking time. Why cant you be hurt. Be hurt that our friendship is gone, be hurt that you LOST one of your most LOYAL friends who has supported you through the MOST TROUBLING times in the last 4 years. WHY DONT YOU FUCKING CARE?!?!?! Cause im not good enough? Never have been. I have always been some kind of toy to you. Well guess fucking what… This time, IM DONE. FOR GOOD. NOT KIDDING. Its going to take me awhile to get over this whole shit storm you caused. But its worth it, to know that you will never EVER break my heart again, toy with me, lead me on, hurt me. And I hope to GOD you fucking read this, realize its about you, then read previous posts and see what I’ve said about you… JUST SO YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU MISSED OUT ON! Cuz FUCK YOU! I hope you have fun fucking around with all these loose sluts and hoes and shit. I hope one of them, or all of them BREAK YOUR HEART. SO YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. And FYI i know youll deny it but I am 92% sure you were talking to other girls while we were dating. Which was so long ago, but it still gets to me. You’re so sneaky and maniacal who fucking knows what else went on. Who knows how many other times you lied to me. And you can say im freaking out and over exaggerating and need to calm down. But if you went through FOUR FUCKING YEARS OF THIS CONSTANT SHIT, YOU WOULD REACT THE SAME WAY!!! You have fucked me up emotionally to the point where I just cant trust anyone again, not even my current boyfriend! You ruined that for me. You set the example and stone whatever you wanna call it, for my future relationships. I base everything off of what happened with you. What you did, and how everything felt with you. Which is stupid on my part, but I cant fucking help it. And maybe I am fucking insane and mental. But guess what I CANT HELP THAT EITHER.

Anyways, this “Friendship, relationship, shitstorm, mindfucking bullshit” is over. OFFICIALLY.

Dont worry though, I will send a happy birthday every year, because AT LEAST I REMEMBER YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!! And that way… once a year you can feel remorseful. And maybe ill send a picture in a few months… and let you see how good i look and another reminder on what YOU CANT HAVE and so you can feel shitty ALL OVER AGAIN!

Sincerely,
Im fucking done with you!

#blondieisbackk  #asshole  #hate you  #fuck you  #crazy  #heartbreak  #insane  #shit  #shit storm  #relationship  #friendship  #ex  

Love is Lost.

I opened up and let you in.
Time after time, you broke my heart again.
And yet here i am dying to try and win you over again.
I’ve tried so many times to talk to you and reconnect, but nevertheless I failed over and over again.
This is my last attempt.
So darling if you see this and realize its about you,
Call me and tell me, do you feel the same as i do?

If you dont, ill understand.
Our timing is just off, yet again.
No need to fright, if we dont need to talk tonight…
I just wish it was as easy as it use to be,
When we first met and you smiled at me,
I’d melt and you’d just sit there staring back at me.
I miss those times.
I miss those long amazing days.
I miss your smile, your face, your touch and embrace.
But mostly I miss the way you would look at me and know just what I was thinking…
You’d lean over and kiss me,
Then pull away just to see the smile on my face.
I miss the way your lips taste.
Darling please, remember this, remember me.
I don’t want to go another day without you,
But if it is what will make you happy…
I’ll go away for a hundred years,
Just to see you smile a thousand more.

- Kirstyn Kelley

#blondieisbackk  #@blondieisbackk  #love  #lost  #sadness  #heartbreak  #heartache  #i miss you  #goodbye  #darling  

That awkward moment when…

You’re thinking about suicide not in the moment as an option, but as a goal. That’s when you know you have a serious problem.

#suicide  #die  #kill me  #hate my life  #serious